Divided

I feel like a bag of loose bolts today. so much to do and the uncertainties both excite and eats away at me.

Consolidation for the AIAny Marketing meeting

The suggestion made at the marketing presentation are mostly along the line of the traditional medias.
My reaction is that there is a real demand for solid information on marketing in the new media field. Of all the firms that was represented at today's meeting, there does not appear to be any experiences with the new media, my question regarding the positive or negative of blogs basically fell into a hole.
What is required to fill this hole? a source of information that have a good amount of information on the subject base on real world experience and ways to quantify results. There is a real opportunity for getting in here. To follow up on this subject, here are my reaction:
1. I should put together a short presentation to fill this hole. I can start simply on the subject of blogs. Several architecture firms either in/ off side blogs and I can reach out to those people and get some real world experiences and bring them back, either have them speak or what not.
In addition, I have decided that it would be an interesting exercise to construct an architectural firm presence and see how far I can build my self as a brand.

End of April

Weather has been beautiful for the past three days to the point of absolute distraction. There are much to do and moss are growing on my now two live projects. Lets make a todo list and keep going!

organization principle

I constantly feel the need for realignment, I think the questions here is that I do not have any focused goal list. With out it and attached deadlines i can hardly move forward. I need to make a plan.
Where am I going to put this, I wasted just as much time trying to figuring this out as I actually writing the damn thing..
target market is the marketing department of architecture firms, my main focus right now is
condensate my idea into a pitch/ thesis that I can run it by a group of marketing people in my target market, 20.
2 aspect of this plan, getting a list of people I can contact and creating my pitch.

running

I was consumed by panicked thoughts last night when the realization came that I have been out of work for nearly half a year.
It is good that I was able to pull together the video but to me, the project continue to feel like a distraction rather then something I am truly committed to. Some how I do not feel like I have given enough of my energy to it. Distraction and lack of focus continues to be a major problem for me. Last week was productive largely due to the predefine set of goals I had. I am now at a dangerous spot since I am once again without clear goals and deadlines. So in turn that is my most pressing need.
This is not a project, this is for real. I wanted control, I have it now. But control also means responsibility. Me and I is where that lies and I need to decide.